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i_vanquish_evil) wrote2005-10-15 01:35 pm
i_vanquish_evil) wrote2005-10-15 01:35 pm
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((a little out of order, but VH jumped up with an answer to this one))
Who do you need to forgive?
Myself.
Seems cliche, I'm sure, but it's true. Me. Probably for many things, but mostly, for Anna's death; for not being able to save her. She saved my life and I took hers. I don't think she blames me, but it's still a pain I carry. A burden on my soul.
It is unfortunate that her death came at my hands after I had saved the souls of her family. She could have lived on, fought again, but now, all are left with just her memory. A memory of a heroic act to save her family, but a memory, none-the-less.
I wish I knew how to overcome this, but I fear I may never be able to do so. I fear I will carry this for the rest of my days with no absolution and I don’t know how to fix that.
Anna, I’m sorry and if I knew how to fix it, I would. But since I don’t, this will have to suffice.
Who do you need to forgive?
Myself.
Seems cliche, I'm sure, but it's true. Me. Probably for many things, but mostly, for Anna's death; for not being able to save her. She saved my life and I took hers. I don't think she blames me, but it's still a pain I carry. A burden on my soul.
It is unfortunate that her death came at my hands after I had saved the souls of her family. She could have lived on, fought again, but now, all are left with just her memory. A memory of a heroic act to save her family, but a memory, none-the-less.
I wish I knew how to overcome this, but I fear I may never be able to do so. I fear I will carry this for the rest of my days with no absolution and I don’t know how to fix that.
Anna, I’m sorry and if I knew how to fix it, I would. But since I don’t, this will have to suffice.